1. That people stupidly assume that, because my great-grandparents on my mum's side immigrated from Japan, I am somehow knowledgable about all things Japanese. Spoiler alert: I'm not.

2. In one of my classes we were got off on a tangent and were talking about how some people in (in North America) voluntarily attach their picture to their resume, I assume, in hopes of increasing the odds of getting called for an interview/getting the job ('cause they're pretty?). I don't know. Whatever. Anyway for me it raises many uncomfortable feelings. Not only because it would feel like I'm being evaluated on my looks. You see, on paper, I read white. If I hand out a resume that does not have my full middle name, you can't really tell I'm a PoC. So for me, attaching a picture? Makes me apprehensive because being able to go into an interview without the person wondering if that's my 'real name' and wondering how good my English is? Is an asset. And yeah, I hate having to think like that, but I've been around long enough to know that despite all the bullshit about being 'post-racial' (whatever that means) and 'colourblind' society is anything but. My grandmother is Japanese-Canadian, and over the past few weeks, from the pre-op to post-op to the nursing home she's recovering in, I've had doctors and nurses look at her name, look at her, then ask me, my mom or my aunts if she speaks English, while she's sitting right there. And yes, part of that is ageism, but geez, I'm sick and tired of people assuming she either cannot speak English, or is unable to speak for herself for other reasons. Yeah, I get it. She's old, but she's not incapable. The whole thing with her hip surger made this whole...societal clusterfuck glaringly obvious to me.

3. After the recent fandom kerfuffle or whatever re: racism, and PoC charactersI became very cynical about people (more specifically, white people) 's motives for posting. Because at times it felt like people were just shouting "I KNOW THERE ARE WHITE ASSHOLES BUT I'M NOT ONE OF THEM, LOOK SEE I POSTED". I don't know. I understand that it needed to be said, believe me but sometimes it felt like people were taking it as the opportunity to make sure everyone knew that they weren't One of Those People. I dunno. Just my feelings, and I don't even think I'm stating them that well.